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Behind the world of I SPEAK MACHINE with Tara Busch & Maf Lewis


Greets and bleeps in 2017. A bit overdue for a rambling musing.

I thought I’d drop a line here and dust off ground control. How have you all been, making music? Making noise? Creating & speaking your truth, your voice, following your heart, your head, the sounds in your mind, all that juicy juice that makes life worth the occasional walk on the plank or feeling like Frank floating aimlessly in space, or chest freezing anxiety or….well…good. You are.

So we take to our heads and studios, to push forward, to move and reinvent and strengthen. Like Nina Simone said:

I Speak Machine, despite witnessing the utterly crushing blow of a shit-eating manbaby being elected to office and the deaths of many a hero in 2016, thankfully had a very enriching year creatively and have finally really began to find our voices and how we work together…our process, so to speak. We had 3 successful (in the sense of me not having a panic attack onstage) tours that were an honor and pleasure to be involved in and met some mind blowing artists and all around lovely people.

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Photo: Neil Fellowes

Fast forward to mid-2017…. we’ve adopted a truly lovely, glorious little dog called Strelka who keeps me company in the studio, and are sculpting inch by inch our new work. The live gigs are on the back burner, but we are also gathering momentum to release the soundtrack to Zombies 1985 on Lex Projects late summer early fall, finally ( WATCH THIS SPACE!)! We must have the most patient Kickstarter backers in the universe….

So I’m music making again. I cling to the rope of a pendulum that swings from feeling quite confident and deserved, to feeling like I shouldnt leave my bed and should just hold my dog & sulk into her fur for the rest of the day…the studio is both a treasured place where I feel my brain come alive and rewire itself –  with the occasional joy-flood to be able to be doing this at all, to a place of sheer horror, pitch black bleakness and self deprecation. But I must fashion my feet like Butch Cassidy jumping off of the cliff..or Thelma & Louise stamping the gas pedal to escape their captors….keep moving forward. Well, I now feel like making music should always feel like this to some extent. I’m frightened of it, addicted to it and in love with it.

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Photo: Maf Lewis

So the most “interesting” thing I can share with you at this point, if you so want to see, is perhaps a peek at my weird little way of doing things and the machines that I spend my time with.

I’ll try to post more…maybe a few times a week just to begin archiving my footprints. Also I want to share with you the gear I use, as always – I’m never one to be precious about how I do things – I’m if anything, grateful if people care enough to learn about it in the first place!

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Above: Earthquaker Devices’ luscious display (including the fabulous Rainbow Machine) at Moogfest 2017

Anyway. I hope you’re all ok & well in this world otherwise spinning on an axis laced with turmoil… but hopefully a newfound bond to push through all this…with music, art & our voices. I wish I could articulate this better. More soon. x




  1. Keep going kiddo,life can be tough for all of us but you have the gift of music which can make all our lives better. Looking forward to hearing some new music.All the best Mark L.

    Comment by Mark Lynch on May 30, 2017 at 1:31 pm

  2. Thanks for the update Tara, as always i look forward to the next release / gig. shame i missed your kickstarter. wtf was i doing?? best wishes to you all..

    Comment by nigel drumm on May 30, 2017 at 4:47 pm

  3. Embrace the darkness- that is your creative catalyst. But also embrace the joy you get from being able to live your dream of making music. Yin and yang. Can’t wait for the Zombies 1985 as well as the new stuff. Keep that “machine” running!

    Comment by Mike Feinberg on May 30, 2017 at 8:46 pm

  4. Inspiring post. Makes me want to make more music. This kind of sharing, encouragement, and refocusing is needed right now. I know I need to hear it, so I assume many, many others need to hear it too. So thanks for saying it.

    Comment by Matt Piper on June 3, 2017 at 12:35 pm

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